I lie so easily. Everything I do is exaggerated to please my intended audience. It upsets me.
I bought my first vibrator yesterday. It was a bit embarrassing but fun :) I am still too worried to share any gory details online, but it was Ann Summers and it was a laugh. A planned laugh.
Saw SB yesterday aswell. Basically... He was on the train station with a friend and we chatted as a three on the train and he was a little flirty and he stole and drank my Ribena but then when he made a joke he said "oh yes, I stole some Ribena from a random girl on the train" to his friend. Random girl on the train wasnt the label I wanted, and I almost missed my train station hyperventilating over seeing him. Then he text e "you want me :P" and I dont know how he knows but of course its true.
Then again, I saw CC this morning and had a really nice time. We had THE TALK about dating and relationships and we decided that a closed but quite private relationship was good for us. He asked if I liked him. I said yes truthfully. The he asked if I liked anyone else. I answered no but all I could think was SB.
HOWEVER
When I see CC its very "Hi, you are an amazing person who makes me feel nice and special and we can have fun, be involved and watch a film or chat. You are nice."
When I see SB its more "You. Me. Your pants. NOW."
Obviously not that exactly but you get my drift.
The reason I am writing is because I am stressed out. Not about boys (or girls, or M) but over latin. Yes, you heard. Latin.
I have my latin GCSE tomorrow. I didnt revise and got a B in my mock. I have forgotten to revise. I have found that my friends have revised non stop and know all of the vocab and grammar. I think the most I will get is a B with my knowledge. I doubt my parents would be happy but they'd survive. I worry if I got a C they may cry. Because Tori and Livvy and Vicky would all get 100%s and I would die.
I am too tired to cram revision, I will try and do some tomorrow before my 9am exam. If I fail, I'll write.
Love xxx
