1 more post!
NO I haven't come out officially, don't get your hopes up. However. I have dropped many hints and I think people are pretty sure. I'm not denying being bisexual when people ask, but Im not confirming. As one of my best friends said : "I'm not going to ask because until you say yes I can pretend you're straight". I like that. My dad knows I think, he keeps making references to : 'My future husband... or wife' which I think is a sign that he's got the picture because I didn't want to shock him. My mum is 100% sure Im not gay but I think she has an idea that Im bi. So do most of my friends.
Im still in love with a girl in my year "M" and Im not too scared about giving away a hint because if anyone I know found this blog I doubt they would focus on that when my whole life's secrets are revealed here.
Ages ago in truth or dare I told Vicky about "M" but really underexxagurated it, saying it had been a 10 second crush in year 7. However, shes not stupid. She's seen me looking at M and she must have noticed that I always defend her and worry about if she's ok when shes upset more than anyone else in her friendship group. Mind you, I dont hear about M getting with many guys or sleeping with guys for the sake of it, so maybe there's a chance...?
Ah well, spanish test at 8am 2morrow morning. Wish me luck :S xxxxxx
Sunday 31 January 2010
Hate is a strong word
Not as depressed as this poem seems, just read this saying and thought of a poem. Not my best but...
Hate is a strong word.
Its used to hurt
And used to abuse
And used to ruin someones day
And make the good times go away
And cure laughter
And wreck smiles
And break friendships
And strenghten enemies.
It stays with someone for ever.
Hate is a strong word.
Thats why im using it.
Hate is a strong word.
Its used to hurt
And used to abuse
And used to ruin someones day
And make the good times go away
And cure laughter
And wreck smiles
And break friendships
And strenghten enemies.
It stays with someone for ever.
Hate is a strong word.
Thats why im using it.
I liked the saying at the end. xxx
Update ... Happy New Year!!!
Hey people.... person... myself.
Hows your life? Mine's better since my last update! :D We've had a new year and oh dear Lord what a new year it was. I've just checked, my last post was 1st December and I was very upset. Since then I've had my birthday, christmas, new year, ups and downs. I haven't got the guts to read my last update so here is a new post with everything that happened since in :
December 5th
Accidently gate crashed a party of a girl in the year above, got off with a drunk 17 year old and found out that one of my best male friends liked me but didn't think I liked him.
December 6th
Got off with the guy who liked me (Lets call him "C"), found out that a girl that hates me is in love with him as is another of my friends.
December 11th
Birthday!!! good day, all my friends waiting for me and evening meal with parents.
Cant remember much of december but xmas was good, lots of clothes and prezzies, too much chocolate :D
New Years : Fun
SnowDays
Got off with "C" a couple more times, oops. I do like him but it's too complicated. I think.
Random :
In the meantime I've made another boy "J" fall in love with me.
My ex boyfriend from a couple of years ago is stalking me. Lets call him "H". He facebook stalks me and keeps showing up when I'm around.
I miss one of the guys "A" that I used to be friends with and he's not really talking to me since the year 11 December 6th incident.
Last Weekend :
Went through a very depressed phase but didnt have laptop so couldn't write about it. Felt a bit like a worthless slut but Ive now found out it could have been pms... :S oops. Got a lot of sympathy though which was nice.
Last Week:
Everyone thought I had this winter flu thing but Im not sure I did. I threw up a couple of times and was going from hot to cold but it wasnt that bad, I couldnt face school after my depressed stage though so I left for the week. Probably not the best idea with all the catch up Ive got to do but it was useful that I got a break.
Last Night :
Went to Becky's with Alice, Becky's boyfriend and "H". See what I mean?! They left at 6 and Me Bex and her little bro had a meal while her parents were out. 10 oclock "H" turns up claiming to have been beaten up. Covered in cuts and cigarette burns in his pocket. Says he was at the station and they've had him for hours but we know for a fact that he had been taken home. Packet of cigarettes in his pocket that wasnt there before (self harm...?). Dad thinks he was high and "H" broke Mums car accidently. Parents dont like "H".
NOW:
Tired. Feeling a bit sick after too much food and chocolate. Feeling very fat with my parents making fat comments and eaten so much. Got a proper tummy now which sticks out and I cant push in. I want to work it off but I have lost my self control because of tiredness. Wrote a poem based on a quote which I'll publish in a new post in a min. Generally odd time but I do miss this blog and will update more now. Its been 2 months. Sorry xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hows your life? Mine's better since my last update! :D We've had a new year and oh dear Lord what a new year it was. I've just checked, my last post was 1st December and I was very upset. Since then I've had my birthday, christmas, new year, ups and downs. I haven't got the guts to read my last update so here is a new post with everything that happened since in :
December 5th
Accidently gate crashed a party of a girl in the year above, got off with a drunk 17 year old and found out that one of my best male friends liked me but didn't think I liked him.
December 6th
Got off with the guy who liked me (Lets call him "C"), found out that a girl that hates me is in love with him as is another of my friends.
December 11th
Birthday!!! good day, all my friends waiting for me and evening meal with parents.
Cant remember much of december but xmas was good, lots of clothes and prezzies, too much chocolate :D
New Years : Fun
SnowDays
Got off with "C" a couple more times, oops. I do like him but it's too complicated. I think.
Random :
In the meantime I've made another boy "J" fall in love with me.
My ex boyfriend from a couple of years ago is stalking me. Lets call him "H". He facebook stalks me and keeps showing up when I'm around.
I miss one of the guys "A" that I used to be friends with and he's not really talking to me since the year 11 December 6th incident.
Last Weekend :
Went through a very depressed phase but didnt have laptop so couldn't write about it. Felt a bit like a worthless slut but Ive now found out it could have been pms... :S oops. Got a lot of sympathy though which was nice.
Last Week:
Everyone thought I had this winter flu thing but Im not sure I did. I threw up a couple of times and was going from hot to cold but it wasnt that bad, I couldnt face school after my depressed stage though so I left for the week. Probably not the best idea with all the catch up Ive got to do but it was useful that I got a break.
Last Night :
Went to Becky's with Alice, Becky's boyfriend and "H". See what I mean?! They left at 6 and Me Bex and her little bro had a meal while her parents were out. 10 oclock "H" turns up claiming to have been beaten up. Covered in cuts and cigarette burns in his pocket. Says he was at the station and they've had him for hours but we know for a fact that he had been taken home. Packet of cigarettes in his pocket that wasnt there before (self harm...?). Dad thinks he was high and "H" broke Mums car accidently. Parents dont like "H".
NOW:
Tired. Feeling a bit sick after too much food and chocolate. Feeling very fat with my parents making fat comments and eaten so much. Got a proper tummy now which sticks out and I cant push in. I want to work it off but I have lost my self control because of tiredness. Wrote a poem based on a quote which I'll publish in a new post in a min. Generally odd time but I do miss this blog and will update more now. Its been 2 months. Sorry xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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